Trial

I haven't watched the local news in over a year. I might catch it every once in a while, but I do purposely try to avoid it. For a good reason.
I turned the t.v on today and seen the guy who killed my best friend and her babies(my babies).His face taking up the whole screen. The apartment. The coroner wheeling out a body. The details. It never gets easier.
They are choosing jury members. His trial starts Monday with an insanity plea. Is it wrong of me to want nothing to do with it. I don't want to attend it. I don't want to hear about it. I want it to be over. I don't really care what happens to him. There are a lot of people who think I should have a role in giving him what he deserves. But I really cant do it. I am numb to all of this. Please just say a prayer for everybody.

Happy Easter!!

Here are some Pictures from Easter. I will upload an album later. Had a great day. Great service at church. So much to be thankful for. Life. Why we were given it. And who willingly gave it to us.

Terrence, Brianna Chris and Aiden. All decked out for church


Chris on the hunt


Aiden came away with the most eggs. He did have help of course :)


My babies

Yes! she is as rotten as she looks!

Home Sweet Home.

Yay!! Vacation is over!

How does that work? How does a person become physically, mentally and emotionally more exhausted AFTER a vacation? It was a rough one.
Rain. Rain go away! We had a late start on Tuesday. The rain wouldn't stop. My basketball goal floated down the road. Stop sign next to my house blew away. I should have taken it as a sign. I really should have. But I didn't. I should have bought a boat. Because I needed it. We drove INTO flood waters. It was horrible. I seen cars underwater. with people in it. Why they keep on driving, I don't know. I pray they got out.
we made it. Of course we were lost for 3 hours.After we got to Branson. Trying to find our Lakefront condo. It's ON THE LAKE TERRENCE. That should be a clue. Why we kept on driving 5000ft above water level, I don't know. At least we made it. 6 hrs after we left home. It was beautiful I must say. I just wish spent more time there.
We did some sightseeing. Ripleys believe it or not was a pretty big hit with the kids. And of course Silver Dollar City ( Super dollar silly according to Aiden). We hit that joint up two days in a row.Never again on opening day. It was insane. It made me insane. It took everything I had not to beat down a 12 year old for cutting in line for the balloons. I am standing in line staring down this child yes. He was a child. a mere 4yrs older than my son I am staring at this kid. you know, the stare that you WANT them to feel. In my head the kid done hit the ground. I had him. He was all mine. Place made me evil.
Went up to Springfield to do a little shopping before we headed home. All in all we had fun. kids enjoyed themselves. and of course, when they do Mom and Dad do too. That's what it's all about. Oh, wait. Before I start sounding like June Cleaver let me tell you what I did. Mother of the year right here people.
Okay Iam worn out. vacation. You done heard all that. So I get home about 10pm tonight. unpacking when BAM! it hits me. Easter. Its tomorrow. Eggs. Baskets.Candy.Bunny. I have NONE of this stuff. nothing. I panic. Grab my kids frantically. throw them in the car and head to walmart. Okay, I don't know why I didn't leave them home with Terrence. I wasn't in my right state of mind. so we get to walmart.
Ive somehow ignored their voices the whole ride. all the questions.complaining they haven't eaten since lunch. Yeah, I apparently didn't feed my kids either. Shredded beef jerky and corn nuts only holds a kid for few hours.
So we hit the Easter crap and my kids flip out. Ooohs and ahhhhs. Throwing everything in sight in the basket. Them. not me. I cant find ANY pre filled baskets. They are gone. I am not really sure what happens but somewhere between $8 empty Easter basket and the $4 grass I lost it. After arguing with they boys what they couldn't have Them making a HUGE deal on what they needed I for some reason say It doesn't matter.Just pick one out. The easter bunny isn't real anyway.Iam the one who buys you the baskets and hides your eggs. The looks on their faces. As well as the 9 parents around me. Silence. Aiden. Poor Aiden. With tears and fear he whispers " but Santa Clause is real isn't he mommy?" Good job, Sally. Like I said, Mother of the year.

ROAD TRIP!!

Spring break has arrived and we are headed to Branson for the weekend. We are all pretty excited for our change in scenery.

I was able to get away this past weekend to spend with some friends. It was pretty fun. A lot of laughs I have to say. Here is the proof.




The bride. I wish had gotten a shot of her veil.

Ryan(the groom) giving Jen a hard time about the piece of turd in the drive.

Jen on the attack

Us girls from high school

I dont think Tisha liked what was in her cup

My beautiful, smart, adoring Daughter took her first real steps last night.It was actually more of a run. we were caught by total suprise. I had no camera or video ready for such an event. After grabbing the needed equipment(cell phone) I had her recapture the moment.

It's a milestone like this that make all the sleepless nights worth it. Then to realize this will be the last time one of your children ever take their first step. Sadness washes over me. Then sleepness nights, engorged breasts and stretch marks bring me back to reality. Yes!! She will be my last child taking their first steps.

Hello, my name is......

Okay, so I've decided to get serious about this blogging thing. I mean, I always have so much to say and sometimes not enough ears to listen. So, what the heck. Why not. I found the hardest part was choosing a name. I thought long and hard. It should be a name that is able to describe my life in one word. Vertigo. a: a sensation of motion in which the individual or the individuals surroundings seem to whirl dizzily b: a dizzy confused state of mind. Of course. what mother of 3 overstimulated children doesn't feel like that at times?
I am going to be up front right now and say that there is no possible way I will be able to blog everyday. Life just wont allow it. I feel a little guilty committing myself to this thing knowing I have way to many other commitments. But I am going to do it. seriously. Okay, so here is a rundown of my life.

Married. Husband is Terrence. great guy, kinda cute

Mother of 3. children are: Chris, 8. Aiden,3. Brianna, 11mos. Awesome

Church. Big part of our lives. http://www.harvesttime.net/ . I would say this is our biggest commitment and is a must have in order for us to survive as a family.

Employed. I work at Rheem. Oh, My Hubby does too. I have a fairly easy job. Get paid pretty decent money.

I guess all I have to say is I am blessed. God has been so good to my family. It is hard these days to be a Christian wife, mother, friend, employee. ...ect... I am trying to find a few more people to add to my life to help me with my journey. Maybe that is why I am here.


Oh by the way, my name is Sally :)